Hello NP: I'm sorry you had to live through this traumatic experience. Here are links to 3 articles from PsychCentral's archives on the subject of escaping abusive relationships:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...-relationship/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...-relationship/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/archiv...-relationship/

Also... you may want to consider checking out the National Domestic Violence Hotline:

The National Domestic Violence Hotline | 24/7 Confidential Support

1 (800) 799-7233

I wish you well...