I can relate. I've always hated CBT because it doesn't address the gap between knowing and believing or feeling.

I remember reading a post here where someone asked their therapist why they didn't feel safe if intellectually they knew that they were safe. The person's T said it was because they hadn't experienced safety at the level of the body and unconscious mind.

I am doing brainspotting with my T to try to learn to feel safe. EMDR, somatic experiencing, and/or other body focused modalities might help you know feelings of safety better than CBT.