To answer the original question, YES. I've spent a lifetime trying to numb myself so I could not feel. All I did was never really experience life on life's terms. I missed out on growing up ! Do you think that becoming a "worldly success " will make you better or happier ? Having money ? When are people going to realize that one thing is not better or worse than the other. We need to combine feelings and logic together to become more healthy. If you want to be a robot then you just don't want to be a human ! Stop being angry at yourself for being " weak " at one point in your growth as a person. Putting all this armor on yourself will only weigh you down.
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