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Originally Posted by continuosly blue
To answer the original question, YES. I've spent a lifetime trying to numb myself so I could not feel. All I did was never really experience life on life's terms. I missed out on growing up ! Do you think that becoming a "worldly success " will make you better or happier ? Having money ? When are people going to realize that one thing is not better or worse than the other. We need to combine feelings and logic together to become more healthy. If you want to be a robot then you just don't want to be a human ! Stop being angry at yourself for being " weak " at one point in your growth as a person. Putting all this armor on yourself will only weigh you down.
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Thanks.
I guess I just don't know how to deal with my emotions. I was never taught how, nor was I ever given a proper chance to mature emotionally due to my messed up childhood.
In fact, I was told not too long ago that intellectually, I am wise beyond my years, however, emotionally, I am at the level of a 16 year old. The person that told me this was right to some extent. My emotional growth was stunted awhile back.
I guess that by creating this thread, I was hoping that more people would agree with me to reinforce my opinions on this subject. It seems that may way of thinking isn't entirely accurate and one day, I will need to address this issue.
Unfortunately, I'm not ready yet. I have to focus on work, school, and business. I need to prioritize working on what is most important to me and right now, my feelings aren't a priority. I have been fighting tooth and nail to get to where I am at now. Last year, I was homeless. This year, I am doing well for myself financially and am able to support myself for the first time in my life. I simply can't risk going back to the way I was because if that happens, there will be nobody to take care of me.
I need to accept the fact that I'm alone; always have been and most likely always will be. If I fall now, there will be nobody to pick me up. Feelings don't put food on the table or a roof over my head; money does. Without money, we're nothing. That's why I prioritize wealth. I refuse to work some ****** job my whole life or become homeless because of my stupid feelings. I need to fight on no matter the cost.