as for you dealing with it as if it did happen, your not going to find the real root of your problems, if you decide that it did happen, furthermore, who are you going to decide who abused you ? because surely that would be the next concern if you think you may have been abused, you need to talk to a specialist because the fact you feel better deciding to treat it as if you were abused with no recollection of abuse, is an issue in entire itself.