I'm pretty good at hiding my feelings. Usually all I'll feel is a stab of irritation. It's when I first wake up in the morning that I'm vulnerable to all kinds of feelings. Then I feel outrage.

I can deal if it's just her and me. But there's history of when I say no, she goes to my husband, whom she can manipulate, and he makes all kinds of promises, then gets mad at me when I'm distraught.

I guess I do need to talk to someone. Our marriage counselor moved, making it just hard enough to see her. I get tired just thinking about trying to see her.