It is normal to be deeply affected when a long-term therapeutic relationship ends. This ending sounds very hard, in part because it seems to be unilaterally imposed by your therapist for reasons that I do not understand. Still, though, I don't understand the source of your fear or shame in saying that your therapist is terminating you. Maybe you could articulate it? I think you definitely need to articulate it to your new therapist, and get some support for this! I really see nothing to be ashamed of here. It is OK to need emotional support. It is OK to ask for it. Speaking your fear and shame aloud can rob it of a lot of its power.