So today did not go as I expected. I went to A and E first because my symptoms are really bad, and after two ECG's, blood test, urine sample etc. they came to the conclusion that I have a viral infection!
It just so happens this "viral infection" began the day I my quetiapine dose was cut by 200mg(in sarcastic tone).
As usual, because of my diagnoses I was treated like a fool. They gave me ibuprofen and paracetamol and asked if I felt better now. They knew my temperature was far too high and my pulse rate.
I have an appointment with the psyche on Tuesday. If they even suggest I am psychosomatic or just wanting attention I will put them straight. I wish more than anything I was healthy, and I a nothing like my grandmother. I wish I didn't have to see the inside of a hospital ever again. I hate this. I am sick to my back teeth of it.
I know it is withdrawal because I have missed doses of quetiapine in past accidently and this is exactly what happens. The sweating and headaches. Do they not think that the first thing I would have tried was painkillers?? I am flabbergasted.
I have been on 300mg for three months and I tried 500mg one night and lo and behold - I felt normal all of next day. I know it is the withdrawal. Why do psychiatrists deny these drugs are so powerful??

I would love nothing more than to tell the psyche everything and even threaten to buy pills online if they won't even consider the fact that it is withdrawal. When I swim it helps as it relaxes me, if it was viral, exercise would not help as you have to rest. I get some blinders of migraines, so much so that my eyes go blurry so I wont drive for a while. I cannot afford to pay for swimming every day or second day even. If in three months my symptoms are still so potent how long is it going to be before I actually recover. I have a little time but I need to restart college after xmas. So evidently I do not want to be ill and I am not some junkie wanting a few benzo's, I am legitimately suffering. I don't think the brain and body, can go unscathed with a constant fever and temperature. My immune system is taking a beating. I can't really go long walks and cycle because I sweat till I am soaking and end up with a cough/sore throat. The endorphins help. Benzo's help but I am flat broke. A little alcohol is calming but again- money. It would honestly be two drinks max.
I cannot understand why they so dismissively don't believe me. I haven't had a proper sleep since the dose dropped, down to night terrors, waking up dripping with sweat, wide awake after 4 hours sleep.
I ordered procyclidene from a safe source, and it helped counteract night sweats. It is just a side effects drug no danger involved. But I cannot afford anymore. So I will have to space them out and ration them.
I went through the itching too, and anti-histamine solved that. I never went to psych with my concerns because they never do anything until you literally dangle yourself from a cliff. I thought I could see it through, how hard can some sweating be. It has been so much more.
I can't tell them about rebound psychosis, and how short my temper is without proper sleep. My head thoughts and mood are ok. The physical symptoms means I have to do as little as humanly possible, I don't know what to do now. I am confused as to why psychiatrists in this country are so ill informed.