I was hopeful about finding a new therapist and moving on with treatment, but I am becoming so discouraged. The way I understood it was that my insurance would give me five available therapists, and I would choose one. But no, they gave me one, and he is definitely not right for me at all! I asked about other options, and they said they would send me a list of local therapists that take my insurance, and I can call around and see who has availability. They gave me 18 people to call. 18! I started looking them up online, and it became totally overwhelming. I left a message for my former therapist who is arranging all this, and I basically freaked out like I can’t do this! I don’t know what he will say when he calls me back. Honestly I don’t even want to talk to him right now. I feel so discouraged. How am I supposed to handle all this legwork and self-advocacy when the whole reason I need a new therapist is because I’m unstable and overwhelmed. I’m totally freaking out and want to block out the whole thing. I just need someone to help me!