So the last couple of days were marred by a great deal of irritation and agitation. I managed to keep my animosity from those I care about but unfortunately dumped upon you all and for that I am sorry.

the common thread throughout it all was a marked lack of control. No control over the payment for my kayak. No control over my coming road trip. A complete lack of control at my support group.

I got agitated, I got irritated, and I got resentful. I didn't cope very well other than to moan about it here (thank you for listening). I don't like this person I become.

Today is a better day. There are indications the kayak matter might resolve itself. I have come to the conclusion this added destination on the road trip might actually be worthwhile. The support group thing is behind me.

But dang it, I really didn't like the person I was the last few days.