Something you might consider doing is going through your past postings to forums and see if you can pick up the pattern there and try to make sense of it, in this case, time. My ex therapist was great at teaching me to hook or unhook things from my past and/or present so that I could have a clearer path to follow or choose not to follow. It decreased a lot of anxiety and bouts of depression that I used to have and got in the way of living a better than okay life.

When I get a chance to read forums I often see patterns of original posters and even the posters that respond to them with responses that vary depending on where the poster is in his or her own life. I often feel sad for those that have a chorus ringing in their ear that their therapist failed and it's time to get out. It would be hard for ME to come back and post in a thread like "Tell is about your good T." At times, those are legitimate voices and at other times I believe that it is projection and transference because of not great circumstances in their own lives. But, I do believe most all the responses are well meaning. Just my two cents worth, IMHO.