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Old Jul 28, 2017, 01:28 PM
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Originally Posted by magicalprince View Post
Thanks Ramona. Essentially yes, I would like to send a letter. But I have a feeling that even if I sent her something, at this point she wouldn't even open it. It hurts so much. I would like to be heard, but more than that, I wish she cared enough to want to hear me. I wish she had felt guilty for what she did to me and wanted to correct it.
That's absolutely reckless. I find this to be the most painful part of such a devastating situation. It's something I will never be able to wrap my head around. How a therapist, of all people, can devalue and dismiss a human being that is their client like that is beyond reprehensible to me.

In my case, it makes sense to me that my ex-therapist friend had too much deep pain of her own already. To have to look at her significant wrongdoings and incompetence would cause her more pain and she can't handle that. So she had to hurt me deeply in order to avoid creating further pain for herself. If she were just a friend, I could understand this and move on. But, because she is an experienced therapist, I cannot understand this. To have no remorse, take no accountability, no desire to try to correct her egregious mistakes --and knowing the intense damage she would cause me quite frankly scares the shiit out of me.

I am actually writing ex-t a letter right now. I have already found some relief in the process. It feels like some of this anger and hurt gets released through pen and paper. I debate whether or not to send it when done. I have to further examine my intentions for doing so. Right now it's more to provoke a response that I know I won't get over gaining a piece of closure for myself. I'm also trying to finish up writing the report on her too. Who knows what I'll end up sending off when everything is done. But, I do find the writing process helps provide me with some healing regardless.
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