I resonate with feeling like giving up on yourself.

My thing is a bit different. I have just discovered that there is a term coined for people like myself who have many passions at once and don't want to commit to any of them in order to make it a career. The term is a "scanner" and it was coined by an amazing career coach Barbara Sher whose book "I could do anything if I only knew what it was" I read about 20 years ago. I can say that that book was the beginning of my detachment from all the social engineering and family programming I was operating under until that point. It helped me to start seeing how the goals I was setting for myself and could never achieve were not really my goals, they were the goals other people set for me but I was unaware of that.

Then just yesterday I've come across another book of hers titled "I refuse to choose" about people like myself with multiple passions for different things, who have never felt "normal" because they didn't want to make a career out of any of those passions, or they wanted to be able to make money by doing one of those things but couldn't commit to it. I read the book's description, then went on youtube to check if she had videos about that, which she did. I was blown away by her saying that there is no need to commit to anything and there is absolutely nothing wrong with that just like there is nothing wrong with pursuing multiple interests/passions with no intention to make a career/money out of it. Moreover, she said, not only there is nothing wrong with doing that but it is a special gift that not many people have. This type of mind is genetically wired to look at things holistically, to find connections between various areas of life and to want to study many of them in order to get the bigger picture. This is the exact description of me, so it was such a revelation to hear it.

But she is not only helping "scanners" to feel comfortable in their own skin and to enjoy all things they want to pursue. She generally helps people get in touch with their true potential and to realize it one way or another. Very inspirational woman. Here is one short video of her talking about the importance of doing what you love You can find all her books and talks if you want to hear more on this subject.

Oh, yes, in terms of how my therapy has helped me with this, it hasn't. At all. Being able to realize my true potential has always been one of the major themes of my life, if not THE major one, but it was completely dismissed by all my therapists.