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Old Jul 28, 2017, 04:38 PM
Yellowbuggy Yellowbuggy is offline
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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight View Post
Doesn't she know at this point, after 6 years, when I say something like, 'I'm not going to tell you about x,' I actually mean that I *do* want to talk about it, but maybe am nervous, so I want you to draw me out?"

Yeah, I know, I probably should have learned enough in therapy to *not* do things like that...to just be more direct.
I think this may be behind her response (or lack thereof). Perhaps a combination of this and something another poster said about not wanting to get involved in the triad of you, her, and MC. I suspect she doesn't agree with MC's approach and she's not able to say it directly, so she's in a bind. I know she has alluded to it in the past but it may be difficult for her professionally to be more direct, so she may be showing that reluctance in her response.

IMHO, I do not believe MC is helping you by being so accepting of everything that occurs in therapy. I think it may be fueling your attraction to him (and those of us who are also attracted to our therapists, including myself!). It's just not natural, and it may be one of the reasons we fall in love with our therapists. If therapists are to provide a corrective emotional experience by modelling an appropriate, boundaried relationship, I think it should be more realistic in this way as well. We are not accepted unconditionally outside of the therapy room, so why should it occur inside? For example, if my husband agreed with everything I thought, felt, said and did, we would both be in trouble. That's not to say therapists should not have unconditional positive regard for us, but the level of intense attention paid to us in the therapy room - and only us - can be dangerous as well.

I admire your effort in trying trying to make sense of what is happening in therapy. I like reading your updates. You remind me a lot of myself!
Thanks for this!
LonesomeTonight