I've had a previous psychotic episode but I don't remember how it started. Does this sound like the beginning of one?? I have Bipolar w/ Psychotic Features

I'm starting to hear whispering and loud banging, it's driving me nuts. There is also a voice says bad things to me sometimes, not as often though. I'm also seeing shadows of people, sometimes a whole person in clothes and everything, move out of the corners of my eyes. I'll hear my mom come in the house and call my name, but when I come out of my room she's not home. I can't really sleep in the dark anymore because I feel like there is something there that's going to get me and I'm also seeing faces in the dark, scary ones. I'm scared to talk on the phone because I feel like the person I'm talking to can see me through the phone or if I say certain words the government is going to record my conversations and come after me. So I'm on eggshells when I finally do talk on the phone. I will find myself sitting in the same spot for hours, not talking or moving but I don't realize I've been sitting there so long until I kind of snap out of it. This has happened 3 times so far. I keep forgetting the words I want to use so I just say .. "thing" instead. Like "Hey can you bring me that (pause for a while) thing over there?" So it's like my mind is moving very slowly. I also have little to no emotions, it's weird .. like I can't express myself when I speak. I get nervous that people are watching me through the webcam on my computer.

I'm going to bring this up to my doctor at my next appointment in August. I'm afraid of being hospitalized though. I'm terrified of being locked away and I fear that my family will just leave me in there. I'm currently on 5 different medications for my symptoms, and I've been hearing the voice/whispering for months now. I rarely leave the house, I'm starting to isolate myself more and more. I hate being out in public because I feel like everybody is staring at me. It's weird to explain, but I'm getting really stressed out because of all this. I can't hold down a job and that makes my mom mad. I just recently told her what's going on and she is being a little more understanding.