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Originally Posted by BudFox
I also have a sense of having been conditioned by the experience, but I find it hard to verbalize specifically what that means.
Not only is the product of therapy intangible, but the damage done is very hard to pin down. If someone were incredulous and wanted to know just what you mean by harm, and you said you were conditioned emotionally, I suspect most people would not get it or buy it or even care.
I think some form of dysregulation is always part of it. And maybe some brain circuitry has been altered through repetitive experience. Or maybe just psychological distress that is self-perpetuating.
I also feel that my therapist is inside my body. Apparently people tend to store trauma and stress in their viscera. So yea, I think for me the experience lives on in my guts. That feeling of anguish.
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very well said Budfox...i couldn't agree more. and this is one reason why it is so difficult for those of us who have suffered like this, or even been re-traumatized, to find help or support to recover from this. because the needs of our harmful Ts took precedence to the therapy service they were suppose to deliver, others (including those in the profession) have no idea or understanding to the depths of the damage it can cause...and in some instances, they may not even believe it is possible (or are in complete denial and it is easier to blame the client).