Thank you all for your thoughts.

Xynestesia and HereToday, thank you for your very thoughtful posts.

My historical development of finding "my thing" was different, but some of your experiences resonate.

Like you, HT, I was suffering in my younger years from what can be called a lack of sense of identity or, as I prefer to call it, a sense of belonging somewhere. I think, longing to belong somewhere, finding our "tribe", "our people", be it a family, a community, a group of some sort, some social structure that accepts you for who you are, that gives support and protection in difficult times, gives you identity (knowing who you are) just by you being a part of it - yeah, I think, this is universal human longing..But some people may not have experienced it..so I don't know..I know I have. It was a long time ago though and I am glad I am not in that emotional space any more. Because what I hate the most is to suppress my true nature in favor of "fitting" into any social structure or in favor of keeping a relationship going and not being rejected. I was never goo at it anyway, so I finally realized that there is no point in trying because all it does is that it only makes me suffer but it doesn't help me "fit in" any better. Once I decided not to worry about being accepted anywhere or by anyone my life improved greatly.

As to "passion" or "calling", I think, I may not be using the right terms to explain what I mean. I think, the word "bliss" would describe it better. Like in the popular cliche "find your bliss"..

When I think of bliss I see a little kid running on the beach, slapping the waves with his/her little hands and feet, forming shapes from the sand and not caring about anything because he/she is fully immersed in the joy of what he/she is doing.

This is what I mean, I guess. If any of you have been able to find something that would allow you to immerse yourself in that activity to the point that you completely forget who you are, where you are, what time it is. When you are in that space, there is no thinking involved and things like "identity", "self", "career", "occupation" etc don't even exist. Nothing exists there except your highest joy.

I've been able to experience this when I painted, when I did graphic logo design and, sometimes, when I was able to connect with other people on the most genuine level. This place to me is where Life itself lives and if therapy doesn't help people to get to that place, then to me it makes no sense.

I don't know if this makes sense because this is coming from a pure inner experience, not from logic.

I will post more about it later.