Hi Prefab. I was doing better yesterday. I was busy, went for a walk, and went to the arts fest. Today I was ok. I went to a zumba class. But now I'm feeling bad again. I ate a doughnut. I don't have diabetes, so I don't know what my ****ing problem is. But when I eat sugar, I feel like **** after. I always seem to forget.

Oh, I also told my supervisor of the hotline I volunteer at, what happened with the guy not being helpful, and she apologized and said he didn't do the training he received correctly. But that she knows him and was sure he was trying to help. But she was really nice about it. So I'm glad about that.

I want to talk about dating, just for a minute. I don't think I should date right now (I tried it, and that's fine). I think...I should prepare myself to date. I think...I should become more discerning and selective when it comes to who I date. I think this last time, I slipped up. And that's OK. I will get back on the horse and look for men who seem genuinely nice, and give me good feelings. But for now, I think that dating online is not helping me or my self esteem. I deactivated my account.

Instead of dating, I'd really really like to build my life around things that make me feel good, and better, and healthy - mentally and physically. I'd really like to cultivate a support system. Like, friends who I see more than just once a month or less. This might take a while. And if anyone has any suggestions, let me know. I dislike going to new places and seeing people talking to each other, but not me. But I'm going to meditation tomorrow and I'm going to stick around for church afterwards. It is important to me that I go.

Thank you so much for asking me how I'm doing Prefabsprout. I really appreciate that you care and other people too.