My husband wants me to go with him to visit his parents on Monday. We'd be coming back home on Wednesday.

Now, if you don't know, I just spent six months up there, living with his parents. It was awful. I suffered extreme depression and anxiety. The anxiety was severe. I've never felt anxiety like that before, and I've been anxious my entire life! I hate that area. The only thing I like about the area are his parents. My husband's sister and husband and our little niece and nephew will be there too, and they live in Kansas, so it's quite a journey for them.

I'm not sure if I can go back up there again. I just can't! I'm worried I'll suffer that extreme anxiety and get flashbacks. Just the thought of going back up there is causing me extreme anxiety, and I don't have any anxiety prns.

And besides all of that it's a five hour drive, on highways, and highways freak me out, and driving in the country freaks me out. Rural areas freak me out too, and it's an extremely rural area. I can't stand all that empty space!

If you were me would you go? Would you stay home?

My husband said he'd worry about me the entire time, but I'm not suicidal right now. I'm not psychotic. I feel fine, other than the intense anxiety I feel about going up there again. It just feels too soon. We just moved back here.