I'm waiting for my pdoc to call me to assess whatever is going on after she and my therapist communicated Thursday/Friday. Psychosis seems likely. My brain is firing all over the place and I have begun to think of my brain as a separate entity, something with its' own powers abilities. It feels like my brain is attacking me.

Some of that I do believe although I can see it is a little different. But I refuse to believe that I am having these thoughts that torment me; I haven't ever had anything like this before and I just know it's not really my brain doing this. It is my brain attacking me. My brain is not part of me anymore. It's an uninvited parasite.

There are delusions that once convinced otherwise I'm ok with. Some I haven't told anyone about.

But the thing that doesn't make sense is that I am aware that my thoughts are abnormal. I tried to type what I was thinking to show my therapist but it's too fast and I can't focus.

So can you be aware that the psychotic thoughts are not quite right (at least a portion of them) and still have psychosis?