he'd do what he has been doing for months... work with me. i have been depressed for a long time but i am guess you mean a sort of accute kind of crisis depression or meltdown of sorts though.

you know? i am not sure what he would do if i broke down.. it's one of my lingering fears.

with the depression i have been in, sometimes we do support stuff... othertimes i have deliberately asked that we just pretend i'm not depressed and work on other stuff. i get so depressed for long periods that if i waited for it to lift i wouldn't get anywhere

i am very sorry you feel such intense sadness. for what it's worth, i have always found your responses to me to be insightful and thoughtful. i am always interested because you have such a strong voice and spirit.

(((((sunrise)))))