I've been reluctantly going to a 12 step program for a couple weeks but heart just hasn't been in it. The people were great but i disliked the program, especially the confessing and apologizing.

Well tonight i discovered something new for me: SMART Recovery! It appeals to me much more! I can go to a meeting on Monday. They've got a robust online presence. I'll explore more tomorrow.

Tonight i did a cost-benefit analysis of staying the same versus changing and it was very compelling. I examined a core belief and concluded that my problem behavior exacerbates my suffering in the long run. I learned about having a balanced life and read that most healthy people are more happy when they are involved with an activity outside themselves and decided to go back to a competitive game i play at a club.

Feeling sooooooooooooo much better about the future! I just wasn't looking forward to 12 step. Has anyone else tried SMART Recovery?