It wasn't for me the fact that he brought up helping me find another therapist when he de-panels that upset me. I'm thankful that he (sounds like he) would be diligent in helping me find someone else. It was more that I felt like he was being dismissive of the obvious transferential feelings I have for him. Like that he couldn't handle them, didn't want to handle them, whatever. I'm too much for people to handle. I ask too much of people.

And in my life, this is usually the part where I run away. Let me burn the bridge at the first sign of trouble before the other person gets the chance to reject me.

That's what it was. I felt rejected by him today.