I wish there was an easy way out. I am in a similar position as yourself and it was months before I read about Lamictal, so I asked my doc if I could try it. She said it was worth a shot and once I got to 250 mg It worked wonders and my deep dark depression ended.
I wish there were a way to fix the depression without meds but nothing I tried worked.

The only way I saw even a little hope was by just telling myself what I really had to be content about. I had my wife, food, clothing, shelter and disability income. Nothing that made me particularly happy but just enough to be content. Content enough to stop the thoughts of ending my life.

So I guess I am just saying to count your blessings and to seek solace in what you do have in your life.

Darcy