Christmas makes me sad.
It's nothing specific that makes me sad... it's pretty much everything... the holiday environment, the Christmas songs, our old house, the fights, the tears, the financial woes... just memories in general. I don't like being around my relatives (other than my parents and sister) and the holidays seem to force that upon me... Every year I'm convinced I have an ulcer after visiting with them.

I have no Christmas spirit this year... and if it wasn't for tons of commercials reminding people they only have a few days left to spend millions of dollars in their stores I probably wouldn't even notice if Christmas had passed by. The only thing that makes this holiday special to me is having my parents, sister, and myself together (when we're actually all getting along) but my sister can't make it home for Christmas this year (she got a new job in another country). It won't be the same but we're still going to make the best of it.

Also, is it just me or are fewer and fewer people decorating their houses and lawns now? My mom and I were going to drive around a bit looking at lights (trying to get in the spirit) but there wasn't much to look at. I really enjoyed Christmas lights when I was little...

One more thing to rant about: I was at the store today and to my surprise they already had Valentine's items and gifts for sale! It's sad to see how commercialized all holidays have gotten. I predict Easter merchandise will be out within a month or so...

Thanks for letting me free my thoughts...

And Merry Christmas to everyone!!