Today is going Ok. I'm not too excited about my mom having a surprise b-day party for my uncle here today. But there's not that many people coming. Only a handful. And it could be worse.

I'm kind of upset with myself for buying two books at the bookstore today. Two self help books. It's hard to change my spending patterns I guess. Maybe I will try not to go there in August. Or just not bring my money if I do go, since, I like it there. So, I have some reading to do.

I started the day off with meditation group, and it was lovely.

Realization: We are all imperfect people who do the best we can in the moment. We all need more compassion from ourselves.

Yesterday I called the hotline again, because I was feeling crappy again. It was very helpful, this time. I decided I'm going to call and make an appt. with my doctor on Monday, for a sooner date than I have (currently end of September). It just seems like a good idea. Even if I don't have a med change, it might be a good idea.

I start my DBT group next week. Looking forward to it.

I finally blocked someone I have wanted to unfriend on Facebook for quite a long time. She was a friend who was initially VERY supportive. And then she dropped me, at a terrible time for me, which made me feel terrible. I don't trust her, and had iffy thoughts about her for a lot of the time we were friends. She seemed to lie, and I got weird feelings from her. Like I wondered if she was using my problems as personal entertainment purposes. I was really nervous about unfriending her. Because what if I change my mind? What if it's awkward in real life if I ever see her? But finally, I was like **** it. She hurt me so much, and even if she didn't mean to, and just didn't want to be friends, I feel terrible around her. I'm not the person she sees me as. So I did it. It is liberating I think I feel pretty strongly about this. and I'm proud of myself.

Everyone have a great day.