I relate to what you said about gender identity. I too identify as genderfluid. Sometimes it is unbearable to be a woman.

As for sexuality, I don't anticipate coming out of the closet anytime soon. I don't see myself ever having a relationship, find casual sex too painful, and so there's no point, really, in coming out. But it kills the soul to keep things in. I guess I'm just scared.

I'm bisexual, but sometimes it's also unbearable to think about sex. It repulses me. I want to get rid of it. So I'm... demisexual?

I don't have anything smart to say, but I related to a lot you said here.