> Some time ago i was taken of all meds for a while

It can be really very hard for p-docs to properly assess your symptoms if you are on a medication. How come? Because every medication has side-effects and it really can be impossible to disentangle medication side-effects from symptom presentation. It might be that your doc wanted to assess your presentation when you weren't on medication so that he would be better able to figure what medication you are most likely to benefit from.

When people start taking an anti-depressant (SSRI's in particular) they often report agitation, anxiety, difficulty sleeping etc. Sometimes people get so agitated and anxious that they become a risk to themself. It might be that your 'positively charged' depressions contra-indicate taking an SSRI. Might be that your doc is thinking that the initial stages of taking an SSRI might make things MUCH worse for you in that respect.

But... I don't know much about meds really. Could you ask him?