Thank you everybody. I take klonopin, but it doesn't help much at all with this kind of thing. I went ahead and took 250mg of depakote, and then will take my normal 750 tonight. I was just freaking out. When I'm not stable, I can start crying in front of other people, with very little control, and it's very embarrassing. So many fears about this trip. I feel like a child who is being dragged kicking and screaming. Just knowing how different my frame of mind is from the way my sisters is (she's going on the trip, too) worries me. She doesn't understand and will just think I'm a downer - another huge fear. I must act happy! Think happy thoughts.