Hey. I think your attitude of wanting to deal with things head on now is a positive and proactive. I have seen lots of people live fully productive and happy lives while also dealing with a mood disorder. Nobody knows if they will be able to live out of all of their dreams, regardless of whether or not they have a mental lness. Life and circumstances can get it the way and we come up with new paths and dreams that often end up even better. Don't get too stuck on thinking about all of the bad things that COULD happen; when something comes up deal with it but don't fret about problems that don't yet exist. It s hard but try to live in the present and enjoy the good things that DO happen along the way.

I'm not gonna lie and say that if you do x y and z you will be stable for the rest of your life. I think part of living well with this disorder is acknowledging that it is always there and that things may be really hard some times but that you can get through it to get to the good stuff. The problem with having a cyclical illness with recurrent episodes for me is that every time I do experience bad symptoms it feels like all the work I did was for naught, I am back in the same place. I have to remind myself that mood blips may still sometimes happen even when being very vigilant with psychiatric and self care, but that look at all I have done and accomplished in spite of (and sometimes because of) them.

Sorry if i am rambling a bit. I wanted to give you some hope that it can get better, you can still do and experience tons of amazing shiit in life. But it can also get worse sometimes and that's okay- because from what I have seen on here ppl who are dealing with this tend to be total badassses who kick butt and keep getting back up when knocked down. And so can you. Hang in there.