Darling {{{{{Jjulia}}}}}

ya know you can PM us any time

in our experience PTSD usually leads to dissociative episodes, with flashbacks

given the early age of your abuse though, it is quite possible that you are DID ( we don't have pegasus' inhibitions about making dx suggestions on line)
it is unusual to get a dx of DID unless you are foolish enough to present at the local hospital while you are dissed out. they can't help you, so a dx will be useless, also it will discredit you when you must deal with your sons shrinks.