Greetings everyone. I apologize in advance for the rant below, but I need to get this off my chest.
Two months ago I was diagnosed with GAD and Dysthymia. I am now 20-years old, and I had unknowingly been suffering from this debilitating condition since I was 14-years old that progressively got worse as I aged. Next, prior to treatment with an antidepressant (which took place since my diagnosis in early June), I was unable to sustain an interest in many activities. I isolated myself in my room, had no friends, but was able to excel in University with a 4.0 GPA. I had no interest in anything, and was unsure why and I accepted it as part of my personality and so did my parents. However, since treatment with an SSRI has taken place I have successfully been able to regain happiness that I had lost all these years. I was now able to get involved in activities and feel happy. I am now playing tennis, trumpet, golf, --- things I haven't done in years. As a result, my parents claimed to have felt ashamed because they felt unaware I was depressed. However, despite this circumstance I have noticed very rarely do they confront me on why I felt depressed and anxious all these years. I have talked to them only a few times but it was absolutely nothing specific and in-depth. I would like to talk to them about certain triggers. For example, some triggers that transpired was when my parents would respond to my anxiety with, "Oh, not this again!" or "Would you cut it out?!" which led to me feeling shame, and then to a depression. Subsequently, one other event that angered me was when my parents would say things to me in the past (when I was depressed) like: "Would you quit being depressed? You're always miserable." I couldn't help it, and they made me feel worse. In all honesty, it angers me that they don't talk to me more about this because my life has drastically changed---from better sleeping habits and higher energy to finally discovering my identity, I feel angered that they don't talk to me more about how I felt. Their attitude I interpret as, "Well, it happened in the past. Let's forget about it." Any thoughts? I am thankful for any responses, and I will respond promptly. Thank you again.
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