Been 19 days since i was last on here. I had to walk away from everyone and thing for a while other than those in living color aka in the real world and not online. I wish i could say things have been good but that would only be half truth. It's been 10 days of the 17 that my kids will be with their grandparents. in that time they have contacted my wife a few times but i've not heard from them since 21st. it hurts to be honest about it. just strengthen my feeling that i'm just part of the scenery unless they want something that they know their mother won't do for them. been 2 weeks since i last spoke with my therapist and i'm not sure if i'll see him this week or not because i have a job interview that i'll probably end up blowing on the same day. To be honest i'm really questioning things right now. No i'm not suicidal just wondering what the point of it all is anymore.