A few of you may know, but I went ahead and applied for SSDI. I knew it was going to be a long process. But I'm breaking down now. My bills are accruing and I don't have enough to pay them. I knew things would be cut off and disconnected. I was prepared for that, but it doesn't make it any easier. I'm situationaly depressed at this point. I sleep as much as I can. I contemplated going IP. However, I called the person handling my case and he told me that he has yet to receive anything from my tdoc. Which is crazy to me because he told me he received something from them and will fill everything out at my last visit. Meanwhile everyone else has submitted my records and he's holding on to them.

I initially didn't get an attorney just for the fact that I wanted to save the money. But now that I know he is ignoring my phone calls and emails and not sending my records, I have decided to do so.

Those of you that have been through this process, how did you get through it? I don't even want to be awake. I dread each day that I wake up now.