(((Mouse)))

I was touched by this post, especialy around the holiday time when all of our emotions are raw.

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.how can I grief for her when I never knew her? when there are no memorys of having been loved??

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From the strong emotion in your statement, It sounds to me like you are grieving this loss right now. Maybe this feeling of emptiness and reaching for something that is not there is the grief?

You know, I had my mother growing up. But I have no memory of her ever holding me or hugging me. She was simply never around. I grieve the loss of what could have been and what should have been and what might have been had she had the wherewithal or the capacity to love.

Maybe because you feel loved by T you know what you lost. But you also are a mother who loves her children so you can use that relationship as a frame of reference for what you missed out on and what you can give yourself.

T says I must mother myself. Often I forget to do this. However, when I do remember, I reach within and allow myself comfort by doing things that help my inner child rest and feel peaceful and held. This could be as simple as lingering in bed reading a book. Maybe you can too.

Best wishes for a loving Christmas!

Peace