Hello, I'm Michelle.
I hope this is ok to post here. I was diagnosed in 2009 with Generalised Anxiety Disorder. I initially went to see the psychiatrist because I personally believed I had Bipolar but he said no.

Up until 6 months ago I was absolutely fine, on medication for my GAD life was good (I suppose)

6 months ago everything changed, I have seen the psychiatrist (private) quite a few times and he's said it's Severe Generalised Anxiety Disorder and I was pushed all different medications because I also had insomnia. I was even admitted to a psychiatric hospital for 7 days. I have also had intervention from the crisis team due to overwhelming suicidal thoughts

This is where my post is going (if your still with me)!

Basically the Bipolar question in my head has always been there. I can go from ecstatic to really low in the blink of an eye.

My depressive moods in the last few months have been utterly awful! It takes about 2 days to shift them and I'm ashamed to say but when I am in a depressive mood I hate everyone around me. It's like I'm a totally different person. We were driving in central London last Tuesday and I just got the urge to get out of the van and disappear into the crowds.

On the flip side though, when I'm on a high I'm on a high! I get very excited, can't stop talking, I'm passionate about everything and I feel on top of the world.

I was saying to my mum only Wednesday that there just doesn't seem to be anyone out there to help me and I feel like I've given up the fight. I have my husband and my cats but I don't really have anything else (I'm not suicidal)

I have just twisted my husbands arm to book next Monday off work so he can come with me to the GP and talk things through because quite honestly I can't go on like this much more. My brain is just in a constant fog and I've had enough!!