You will recover. I also have a very hard time with triggers that deal with medical professionals. I went to my doc about the numbness in my arm and leg. I have 2 pinched nerves, 3 bulging discs and 2 turned vertebrae along my back. All of it caused by trauma starting at the age of 16/17. I'm 36 now. The PA who took my vitals was a man and I immediately started having a panic attack. I was crying and shaking, terribly embarrassed because this young man is just doing his job, and I can't control the irrational fear that I couldn't get away if he was to try to harm me.
My doctor refuses to prescribe anything for anxiety, depression etc. She will however give me plenty of flexeril should I ever need to put and to my life. I have told her on every occasion that I do not take them. I have 3 young children to care for. I cannot stay awake if I take one. Yet, she writes me for 3 a day. So, yeah you're not the only one with trust issues. Right there with you. Take care. Nothin but [emoji171][emoji171][emoji171]