I wish I could make amends to the people IRL and online who I have hurt because of my disorders, but I know I can't. I can only work on me, from today.... I realise now how wrong and stupid some of the things I have done have been. That includes with my mother when I was about 20, I was very angry at that age for lots of reasons but I was so wrapped up in my pain I was unaware of her pain (she had done a good job of trying to hide her pain for many years) She didn't give me a second chance (I was thrown out) and I was angry about that for a long time. But I was the person who was angry more than she was, although she didn't give me the love I needed

I'm working hard on my disorders now and am being mindful of all my decisions.