Hey guys, I'm new to this forum thing so hopefully I'm in the right place! So basically about 6 months ago I had a panic attack after reading symptoms of schizophrenia and after this attack I felt like I wasn't in reality anymore and nothing was real. I then had about 2/3 more panic attacks where I went to the doctor and he said that I had PTSD. The reason he said this was two years ago my mum was brutally attacked by a schizophrenic person and he said that might of had an effect on me. I didn't think it did as I did cry for number of days but it didn't replay in my brain at all!
Anyway, for the next couple of months I had bad health anxiety where I thought I had schizophrenia and a brain tumour as I kept searching the symptoms to see if I had any of them.
About a month ago I was in New York on a field trip with university and I was in the queue for the Statue of Liberty when all of a sudden I had the thought of My sense of reality worsened straight after that and I just didn't know what I was thinking I was trying to resist so much!
So I kept checking google to see what was wrong with me and I guess I came across psychopth and now I feel like I am a psychopth cus I have no emotions and I just don't feel anything at all like not even love. I've been to see numerous doctors who said I have anxiety but I just don't believe them! I just have these thoughts about I don't want to but then I also question myself. Also every time I laugh or smile I question myself, am I really happy or just faking it? I just want my life back but I can't remember what it felt like previous to February, I think I'm going insane or I'm going to hurt somebody
Thank you for taking your time to read this, I know it's long just need some advice🙂