My "symptoms" started in high school. Who doesn't have crazy moods/behavior in their teen years? I feel like the meds go around kept me symptomatic for the past few years. In the past couple months I've tapered my clozapine dose from 250mg to 150mg. I do feel more alive and people say I look good. I don't think I need clozapine because I don't think I'm bipolar (or schizoaffective or anything like that). I want to try going med free for a while and hopefully the rest of my life.