Hi Greygoose,

I've carefully read your posts, which are so expressive and also show a great understanding of what your having to deal with.

When depression hits hard, it feels like everything is going wrong in you, both physically and mentally, like your literally coming apart. One thing after another hits you, but mainly it's just the depression doing all this.

I think that you are a very brave person, and the fact that you can bring some humour into your story is inspiring. I think of myself as a survivor of depression rather than a victim, and I can sense that strength in your words as well.

One strategy I used in the hard times was to remind myself, every time a new fear or worry kicked into my head, that it was nothing new, just the same old depression. The same old bully.

Good luck, Myzen