I can't help but feel for you. I also can't help but be curious about the side effects of these meds you are on. A lot of times people are over-prescribed, or prescribed a med to treat a side effect and not an actual disorder. I'm assuming a lot of this started in childhood? We're about the same age (I'm 36) so I can commiserate w/the feeling of your body giving up/betraying you. I stopped taking meds after almost 10 years of being on them and struggling with addiction, depression, anxiety, night terrors and sweats. Plus the pain. Some days, I want to curl in a ball and stay there, and debated whether to just take the effing flexeril and, like you said, "be done with it". Others? I'm so excited my children need me that the thought of being w/o them triggers a crying jag. I'm a wreck, too :-/ Just know that you're not alone. [emoji171][emoji171][emoji171] Thanks for listening :-)