He has said we are taking it slow. But then he will do things like kiss me out of nowhere so i dont think its friendship only. It is hard for me especially to take it slow though after 9 years. But i have been letting him take initiative. I let him contact me first, he will suggest plans first. But sometimes it does bother me, but i dont want to ' scare him away". I am trying to enjoy things but it can be hard sometimes because i still have alot of questions that need answers but again i dont want to scare him OFF