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Originally Posted by TrailRunner14
I have an analytical part who loves to read and learn things. Pick things apart. I have quite a library about what I've been working through.
Another part of me likes to color. I have several coloring books and found these really cool book marks. They are smaller and take less time to complete. When that part comes forward it is almost obsessive. If I start a picture I have to finish it.
I haven't had any kids books but this weekend I went out and bought some books for my grand daughter and I to read. There is a part of me that's happy about that. I think it will be like reading to the little part that was never read to.
Here's my book mark I did today. [emoji4]
Do you struggle setting boundaries with family, without feeling guilty? |
I don't feel bad, I don't feel guilty.
Possible trigger:
what my family did, they did because they were bad, abusive, controling people.
it's hard for me to feel guilty because they made so many bad dicisions in their life- not just concerning my care, but also the care of my sister and brother, and my familie's future
if my family want to go to africa and abandon us, so be it
this is going to sound horrible, but they are dead to us.
we know they are alive (they still contact us, they still send us threats), but in our hearts and in our minds, they are dead, and we refuse to help them, just like they refuse to help and support us.
I think the only thing I feel bad for sometimes is myself not being able to rely on a family, not having a family to go too for support, and I often blame myself for being abused (which I know is a bad thing, and it wasn't my fault), but it feels that way at times.
you think well.. am I this horrible unlovable person everyone says you are?
and you come round to the ultimate conclusion, yes... yes you are.
it sucks.
question:
are their times in your life that you simply don't talk about because it is too painfull even for you?