It's been awhile since I've responded to any of your posts elevatedsoul.It makes me sad to see that you're still stuck in the same spot you have been since I became a member here.

Ya know,getting a job would probably be the best thing for you all around.Not only would it give you money but I think it would really boost your self esteem and give you something to do,something to look forward to,a reason to get up in the mornings instead of just being home stuck in your own thoughts all the time.Having something to focus on besides yourself will really help your mental issues in so many different ways.

You have said more than once you don't believe you can work a job but really,you're never going to know unless you actually try.I'm sure you're very capable of doing more than what you believe you can.

All jobs are rough in the beginning,it takes awhile to learn a job,get to know coworkers and adjust to having a different routine but if you stick with it,after awhile(sometimes a long while) it becomes second nature and natural flowing.Not only that,employers are required to make accomodations for those with physical or mental disabilities and they would work with you on finding ways to make working a job possible,even if it's just longer breaks,less hours,whatever.But you will never know if you can actually work unless you give it a try.

Not only that but it would be a great way for you to make friends,maybe even meet a nice girl.Maybe you need to think of all the positives about getting a job,all the possibilities it could open up for you instead of automatically focusing on the negatives and all the excuses why you shouldn't get one?

You are what you believe you are.You can do what you believe you can do.So why not decide hey,I'm going to fill out some applications,get a job and give it my best shot,I can do this?