I'm sure I've felt that way when I've been really, really sick (not saying you are) and the new pdoc guided the meeting with his questions. If you get in there and don't know what to say at least tell them you have what you believe to be depression and anxiety but don't know what to say. Good luck with your new pdoc. Hold firm on ECT. If you feel it isn't right for you, don't do it. Best wishes.