I'm sorry you are lonely. Moving 4,000 miles is a big adjustment to make. It's probably very different from where you came. I live in the South and I envy you your Alaskan adventure. Are you still going through a transition? I agree with one of the posters here about new hobbies and new friends. I encourage you to still initiate contact with your old friends so you still have that part of your old life for comfort. I hope things turn around for you soon. Sending big hugs.