Hi, I am new here. I am not sure if this is the right place to post this, but here goes.

So I am hikikomori which is basically a hermit, and it seems like the only way I can talk to anyone in person, or on the phone, is if I am at least slightly buzzed. Like a few beers or shots, or more. I do have some mild physical withdrawl symptoms if I do not drink, but nothing I cant get over in a half day/full day. never any shakes or anything, just a bit of nausea. It just seems I cannot speak to anyone if I am sober. I just grunt at them and tell them to go away. I know alcohol is badly physically addictive just... wondering about the psychological aspect of it. Even as a child I could not stand being around people. Alcohol allows me to talk to people.