I was TERRIFIED of the hospital. In 2009 I went on an MAOI and to make the transition easier I did it while IP. I was so afraid but it turned out to be a good experience. I cried for a good bit of the first day but it wasn't because I was upset to be there, it was because it was such a relief to be somewhere safe and where I wasn't having to pretend I was ok. I've been in 4 more times since then and every time I have been glad I went. Even the year I spent Christmas there was not bad. I'm trying not to have to go now but I know if I do have to it is a safe place and they are there to help me. My hospital has good food, comfortable beds, stuff to keep you from being bored, etc.