Thread: Resilience?
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Old Aug 01, 2017, 08:08 PM
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I've been called unfair names too. Who called you this? Was the person important to you? Their words seem to really effect you as such name calling would likely effect most people.
I feel really ridiculous about it. I know I shouldn't care. I don't know why I let the words bother me. But, every time I hear or see them, I get this psychical nausea in regards to myself and question everything that I've "overcome." I know it's absurd, considering the amount of time that has passed.

The woman who told me this was someone with whom I was in a relationship. At the time, it seemed to be an important relationship; now, I don't really remember much about her. I do remember at that time believing without a doubt that she was the one. I have grown up since; I realize the idea of "the one" is a fairy-tale mentality bordering on magical thinking.

There is this dissonance. I am usually my own person. I do my thing and don't let others' opinions sway me. But, those words really make me question myself. And I feel stupid and ludicrous for letting something trivial bother me. Especially after so much time has passed.
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